Is coming to an end.
Is ending
DONEE <3
I fulfilled my wish.
To complete highschool physically and emotionally.
I’m proud of my strength…
I’ve changed so much these past four years.
I am so different from that awkward child that walked through those doors back in 2008.
I am SOOOO excited.
I’m excited for this limo <3
I’m excited to be all dressed up
I’m excited for my hair and make up to be done (:
I’m excited to be with all my friends together
I’m excited for a chill bon fire afterwards
I’m excited for the perfect weather. Thank you Gramps for smiling down on me (: I love you
Being engaged to someone you have known less than a year is stupid.
Getting pregnant at 18 is idiotic.
Posting about it on Facebook shows immaturity.
Being a waitress making 2 something an hour means your not financially ready.
Having a baby now means you won’t be going to college.
You screwed up.
I don’t dar post any of my opinions on Facebook anymore.
People can’t handle what is rational.
School catering to you because you got yourself knocked up is ridiculous.
Because YOU ALWAYS CHOOSE to NOT use protection. WHAT DID YOU THINK WOULD HAPPEN?? BUTTERFLIES WOULD COME OUT OF YOUR VAGINA?
IDIOT.
You can say how you feel without getting bombarded by idiots who don’t know what they’re talking about
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aqgxOfmLeU0
I’m just so tired
Won’t you sing me to sleep
And fly through my dreams
So I can hitch a ride with you tonight
And get away from this place
Have a new name and face
I just ain’t the same without you in my life
Late night drives, all alone in my car
I can’t help but start
Singing lines from all our favorite songs
And melodies in the air
Singin’ life just ain’t fair
Sometimes I still just can’t believe you’re gone
And I’m sure the view from heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in heaven,
Maybe we’ll make it through one more year
Down here
Feel your fire,
When its cold in my heart
And things sorta start
Remindin’ me of my last night with you
I only need one more day
Just one more chance to say
I wish that I had gone up with you too
And I’m sure the view from heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in heaven
Maybe we’ll make it through one more year
Down here
You won’t be comin’ back
And I didn’t get to say goodbye (goodbye)
I really wish I got to say goodbye
And I’m sure the view from heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in heaven
Maybe we’ll make it through one more year
I hope that all is well in heaven (well in heaven)
Cuz it’s all shot to hell down here (we need you)
I hope that I find you in heaven
Cuz I’m so…
Lost without you down here
You won’t be coming back
And I didn’t get to say goodbye (goodbye)
I really wish I got to say gooooodbye
If I could have chosen the songs at your funeral, this would have been one. I wish I had spoken words about you, but I wouldn’t have made it through. But here’s what I would have said.
“In my ever changing life, you were one of the few constants. You were always there for me from day one. You are the most generous and giving man I know and will ever know. You put others before you because you were that type of person. You emphasized family. It was so important to you. You wanted to pass down traditions. The jelly and zucchini bread were your specialties. I was lucky to have you at “your prime”. We spent to much time together when I was younger, and nobody can take those memories from me. You taught me how to play badminton, and how to “flick the wrist” because I never did it right >.< we’d play soccer together, bake together, you’d come to my t-ball games and cheer games too. You supported me in every single thing that I did. You were constant in encouraging me to do what I wanted to do. You’ve contributed so much to this family. Everytime we were on the phone, it would never end without you saying you love me and enjoy my presence. And now your gone, and it just doesn’t make sense. How does someone like you just..go away..forever? It’s been one month, and I still cry over you. I knew when you were diagnosed, it would hit me..hard. You’d be the first person in my life who I’ve had a life long relationship with that I would lose. It took me four days, the day of your funeral, the moment I had to say “goodbye” for the last time to finally crack. I broke down. I’m sure you saw..I lost my gramps. That was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to go through. You’re no longer here to call me your Princess. To tell me you love me. To tell me you’re proud of me. I want to change to be like you. I want to be someone that everyone knows, that everyone enjoys. The giving person you were. You were the definition of Altruism: Unselfish concern for the welfare of others; selflessness. I can’t name anyone else like that. I was special to you, I know that, I knew that, and I loved that. And you were so special to me too. But now I don’t have you anymore. I only have you looking over me. I can’t ever hear your voice again, but you will always be in my thoughts. I love you so much, and I wish you were here today. I know you aren’t in pain anymore, but I miss you so much. “
That’s what I want you to know. You will always be on my mind. Everyday.
It’s overboard now, it started with like one saying, and now it has one for everything..
Closer to graduation, I’m realizing yet again who cares and who doesn’t.
I’ve never had that “group” of friends, just the few single individuals, but even that is dwindling.
And I don’t care.
I was devastated during the year of losing Steph and Taia, they were my best friends, and losing them hurt so bad. But we were all changing, and just different people.
I lost Jamie, and hell, I’ve become numb to the pain of losing friends, either that or I just don’t care.
Ha, no I think I just don’t care.
I don’t need a friend that doesn’t listen to me. I don’t need a friend that lets her boyfriend attack me. I don’t need a friend that won’t stick up for me. Won’t make time for me.
It pisses me off when people who don’t know me call me a bad friend.
I know I am a damn good friend. I care. I’m loyal. I listen. I’m there for people. I do what I can to cheer them up. I wish I could have a friend like me because that would be all I need.
Not trying to be cocky here. Just saying. I’m a trustworthy person. Yes, I make mistakes, but I’m human. My bad.
Don’t let your boyfriend bring up mistakes from years ago. From before we were friends. Why the hell does he even know about that shit?
I hate you. I do.
That deca thing was a breaking point, letting Zacc attack me like that, that was it.
I go through the motions of school because why start shit with six weeks left.
But after the status shit, Obvioussslyyyy I’ve never had the chance to be happy and all I do is complain, so
Fuck you. I don’t need you.
I need myself and my family. Thats it.
Hope you live miserably ever after with him
